If you were given the chance to correct the mistakes you have done in the past, will you grab it or not?

--One question I asked from a college friend while we were having a conversation last night from a friend's birthday party.

He's unsure of the answer, and so he threw the question back to me. And I answered YES without any hesitation. Why? I was scared before, scared that I might get hurt again and might hurt the person who is loving me that time. I was wrong then because the person I need was there right in front of me yet I made some stupid things that made him let go. I can't explain everything why I was like that during his time, but then again... if I were given the chance to take it back and redo the things that I have done, I would. I definitely would.

Seeing him hurting lately was the most hurtful thing I can feel now. All I wanted was for him to be happy with whoever he chooses to love, but I felt that he is not treated well by the person he is seeing right now. I'm sad for I can't do anything to make him feel better, nor to make him feel secured. I had him at his best, but I lost him by holding back. And so he found someone that maybe deserves him the way he should be... yet it went the other way around. I swear I wanted to take him back, love him the way he should be loved, I wanted to tell him things like 'See that? If you just waited a little longer, you won't be hurt today.' Stuff like that, but of course I can't. I just wanted to take away his pain and make him happy. I dunno. I feel hurt whenever he's hurting. He's the person I wanted to love unconditionally, the way loving should be done; but maybe we weren't meant to be together now... I dunno in the future, only God knows.

Wee. This is just mere thoughts from last night... until now. Funny thing is, he's everything that I wish for when I see 11:11 in my clock. :| Wishes are wishes, it may come true at some point as explained in this quote from Grey's Anatomy: